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TW: Talks about the fucked up state of the US

I am writing this after experiencing whatever just took place in the area that I live at. There was lots of shooting, flashbangs going off, possibly explosions, and tons of yelling. Me and Tina are safe for now however our mental states are not very great. We are still hearing shots of in the distance every so often. During the heat of it me and Tina had hunkered down in an area least likely to get hit by stray bullets. The exterior of our house is made of a bullet resistant material and none of the windows were hit so the damage isn't physical. After the heat of it died down, Tina broke down. I went to go comfort her and make sure she was ok. She said we could have died. I got her to focus on finishing the mac and cheese that she had started since the water was boiling away and she needed to think about something else. She had control over the food, not what was going on outside.

Hearing Tina talk about all that after experiencing everything kind of left me feeling shell shocked. I still feel it. Having a hard time focusing on writing this. However, I need to write it. I've been neglecting my responsibility to write about whats going on in my country. After ICE started killing people so visibly in broad daylight I had stopped for the sake of my mental health. It often felt like screaming into a void. Well. If today has taught me anything, it's that not talking about it doesn't help at all. Informing people does help. All this is to say that I'm going to start talking about whats going even if my mental health is in shambles.